When I was 8 I threw a brick at my sister.
I don't remember it hurting her (I missed and hit the ground) but I do remember the look on my mother's face.
It was a look of surprise and anger and disgust, it was a look that said "why did you do that."
Other than that, I was a pretty good 8 year old.
And a lot of times I think "would the 8 year old me be proud of the 17 year old me?"
The answer is no.
No.
No, the 8 year old me wouldn't be proud of the 17 year old me.
The 8 year old me didn't know that sex and drugs existed.
The 8 year old me didn't know what swear words were or what being gay was.
The 8 year old me thought that every human had good intentions,
and sometimes the 17 year old me still thinks that.
The 8 year old me got dipped in some water and was convinced she would never sin again,
now you tell me was that brain washing or soul cleansing?
The 8 year old me had hope.
The 17 year old me is kinda messed up and my parents know it.
The 17 year old me is happy.
MARRY ME OUR THOUGHTS ARE LIKE THE SAME
ReplyDeleteYOU TRIED TO HIT YOUR SISTER WITH A BRICK TOO?!
DeleteFelt like I was reading my own journal. Amazing.
DeleteWhodathunkit? You started with a brick and it turned in to a comparison between your 8-year-old self and your 17-year-old self. I wish more people had brains like yours.
ReplyDelete"The 8 year old me got dipped in some water and was convinced she would never sin again,
ReplyDeletenow you tell me was that brain washing or soul cleansing?" NICE, seriously.
And I love how you wrote about what happens when you grow up and and how you're messed up and your parents know it but YOU'RE HAPPY. I love love love love it.
ReplyDeleteWhen I was 8 I threw a brick at my sister.
Wait that's hilarious haha.
The 8 year old me got dipped in some water and was convinced she would never sin again,
ReplyDeletenow you tell me was that brain washing or soul cleansing?
#stolen.
so much truth in your statement.
The 8 year old me got dipped in some water and was convinced she would never sin again,
ReplyDeletenow you tell me was that brain washing or soul cleansing?
#stolen.
so much truth in your statement.
there isn't one post on your blog that I don't love. you're amazing!
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