There are bubbles and it's dark and I'm thinking thinking thinking.
I'm thinking about the last time I did a cartwheel and the last time I cried and the last time I made cotton candy (I can do that, well, because I am very very cool.)
I'm thinking about how math works and how I want to become a geologist but I'm too scared because of all the science and math classes you're required to take.
I'm thinking about the taste of cigarettes on your mouth and how I hate the taste of cigarettes (but secretly like it a tiny bit.)
I'm thinking about how I could slip my head under this water and not ever come up, but I know I would because I'd start panicking at 43 seconds (I've timed myself before, is that weird?)
I'm thinking about all the lies I've told and all the lies I wish I'd told and all the lies I'm probably going to tell.
I'm thinking about you and him and her and her and this boy I saw at Target who I think is/was my soul mate because he had pretty hair and nice clothes but he was with his mom and I was with my mom and so we just kinda stared at each other and wandered away but I am 76% sure that we were soul mates.
I'm thinking about how to steal poptarts from the vending machine because I'm poor and can't afford to pay one dollar for two pre-baked toaster pastries.
I'm thinking about muddy buddies because I'm always thinking about muddy buddies because I can never have them but I always want them and they are just so freaking good.
I'm thinking about love because I'm always thinking about love because I always think I'm in love but I'm probably not.
shit, muddy buddies are so much better than love.
the part about soul mates was my favorite. mostly because I always do that then sit in my room thinking about "what might have been" and its really lame but I am glad I'm not the only one who meets their soul mate while out in public with their mom
ReplyDelete"and the last time I made cotton candy (I can do that, well, because I am very very cool.)"
ReplyDeletelol/rofl-ing
I met my soul mate at the mall on Black Friday, but I wasn't looking too cute so I didn't go talk to him, but we're probably going to get married.
ReplyDeletewhy don't we just make this easier for both of us-- FOOD IS BETTER THAN BOYS A LOT OF THE TIME.
ReplyDeletealso I really just like you/this post a lot.
Mmm...muddy buddies. That's all i ever want in my life ever. Give me a muddy buddy ring and I'll call it good. Enjoyed this piece very much. Thank ye.
ReplyDelete"I'm thinking about love because I'm always thinking about love because I always think I'm in love but I'm probably not."
ReplyDeleteMuddy buddies have been coming up in my life a lot lately.
I'm thinking about all the lies I've told and all the lies I wish I'd told and all the lies I'm probably going to tell.
ReplyDeleteAmazing.
#stolen #goinginmyquoteroyalty
"because he had pretty hair and nice clothes but he was with his mom and I was with my mom and so we just kinda stared at each other and wandered away but I am 76% sure that we were soul mates."
ReplyDeleteThat entire sentence because we've all seen someone just like this and we all looked at the other person but didn't say anything. It's always the moms we're with.
That 76%. How 76 is a random number. How I don't think you strategically chose 76. How that meaningless number inspired a title that made me click on this post.
oh 76% was strategically chosen; it's how likely that this boy and i were soul mates. it's a fact. i promise.
DeleteI'm thinking about all the lies I told and all the lies I wish I told and all the lies I'm probably going to tell.
ReplyDeleteHey. I didn't write back to the comment you put on my post because I didn't think you would read it. But yeah, we should talk. Because I'm pretty sure I know who you are too. And when I officially get out of treatment, I might call you, but don't freak out or anything.
PS this was cool.